Thursday, April 29, 2004

Posted by Joycelyn | |

Another stress day for me. but today is still better den yesterday. just that tml is the start of my exam. english and chinese paper 1. first time was so worry for this 2 papers. normally i will just dun care about it maybe just read through some past essay i have written in the past and go for exam. but for today i went up and down to find every notes i have and read though them. hope to do veri well in this 2 paper.

after school went to meet dear for awhile. didnt meet him up one day seem like 1 week to me. but i dun understand why ppl always say that if u meet the person u like or love too often, the relationship will turn sour. well i dun believe that. dun ask me why. i just dun have the reason. talk to him awhile den went home after that.

today was raining so heavily in the evening. didnt realise it coz i was taking my afternoon nap. it seem like the rain wun stop raining at all. but at last it stop. hope tml wun rain. coz my dad wun be able to go jogging. and when he stay at home i will start nagging at me and my mother. just dun understand why he always do that. we cant do anything but just keep quiet. we dun have the choice!

after exam is time for me to enjoy. but dear going for attachment for about 4 months like that. his not going to spend the holiday with me except for the weekend. so sad. though there is some friends out there. so must treasure the time we have now. keke.

hmmm. i will stop here. anyway wish me all the best in my papers k? and oso help me to pray. thankz alot man! plus plus!! those who taking their exam tml or next week or maybe next next week. good luck for ur exam k. i will pray for all of u. cya! God bless! Muackz!

Wednesday, April 28, 2004

Posted by Joycelyn | |

Just got this blog done today afternoon. was quite happy that i'm able to do up this blog. coz i'm total lost in html code thingy. of coz got some help from those template and blog skins. but i did the links myself. keke. will try to work hard even more. actually was not suppose to be doing this blog thing, as exam is coming in 2 days time. but just have the feeling to do so. so cant help it but do it. keke.

I think i had over stress myself over relationship and school things. i'm always stuck between this two things. sometimes even my family. exam is around the corner. i always dun have the mind to concentrate as i always think about other things. sometimes i will just stare in space and suddenly tears will just fall off from my eyes. i'm just veri scare over alot of things. though u might be seeing me smiling everyday. i scare i might fail my exam, my n level and cant get into 5N next year. i scare i cant maintain a good realtionship. i just cant concentrate 2 things at one time. going to be crazy sooner or later.

Really hope exam will end soon. just have to bared for the next 2 weeks. hope realtionship will turn to be better. family will be more understanding. after exam i would wan to enjoy myself and play. but for now i will study really hard. after june holiday had end. its time to study again.

Hope dear will be more understanding. sometimes dun understand why we quarrel over some stupid things. sometimes i find that guys is always not so understanding. they always dun know wat girls really wan. and always think that they are always the one who is right and girls should say sorry. but not for some guys. i dun wan to get scold after u guys had read this.

something really touched my heart yesterday. i was in the bus going back to meet dear. and there is this old lady who is veri old. was walking veri slowly towards the entrance wanted to get down. but she was about to get down the 1st step she forgot to tap her ez link card. so she got up again and tap it. den slowly walk down to the stairs. i see her hold the bar so thightly using her full streght to get down of the bus. i was just sitting down there and doing nothing. i dun understand why i didnt stand up and went to help her up. and i was oso thinking i might be the one walking veri slowly down the bus and was veri old, no one want to help me.

well anyway everyone i will stop here. Good luck to those who taking their exam! and oso dun stress yourself up like me. God bless! Bye!

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

Posted by Joycelyn | |

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